In these days of misery I'm thinking more and more about better times and, in particular, the only true love of my life, Linda Scott (nee Hulbert). I blame myself 100% for the failure of my first marriage. Why I left my first wife is, now, a complete mystery to me. Even with hindsight I'm still no further forward in working out what went wrong. I think it just comes down to the fact that I'm a total idiot and didn't realise how lucky I was until it was gone. And although I don't want to admit it I never really loved my second wife and only stayed with her because I didn't want to be seen to have failed again. What a fool I am!